Monday, January 6, 2014

Hermana Miller: Week 12: Feliz Ano Nuevo!

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Well hello, hello, hello!

First I need to apologize for sending out Christmas things to everyone late. I'm a real jerk sometimes. Haha, sorry guys. But in reality you should be glad because it just means that I am working so hard I don't have time to go to the post office so, hey! Totally a good thing, right?! Life is soooo busy. This week has been FULL of miracles. Just chuck full of them. In fact, every single day is that way!

I wish I had the time to sit and tell you all of them. Actually, I don't because that means I wouldn't be out working and that is my favorite thing to do. Sorry everyone! I will have to make up for it in a year and a half. :) I can't believe my first transfer out here is coming to a close. Time really does FLY on the mission. Hermana Pocock and I had a bit of a panic attack the other day freaking out about how little time we have left in the mission! (She has 9 months left and I have like 15...that's not enough!) We have so many high hopes and dreams for this area and these people, that we truly know will come true, that every second we have we just want to work so hard! And we want to be 100% obedient too! Something I am learning out here is obedience with exactness. As a missionary we hear this quote all the time:

"Obedience brings blessing, but obedience with EXACTNESS brings MIRACLES."

Ummmm, yes please! We can't do anything without the Spirit of the Lord. Without that power, we are useless. And we can only have it when we are being as obedient as possible-to the spirit of the law as well as the letter of it! We are seeing countless miracles every day as we are striving to be the most obedient and hard working missionaries we can be-and it always touches my heart when we see another miracle because it tells me that my effort is acceptable to the Lord and that He is proud of me. What more could I ask for? I just want to work harder and harder every day. As I have been prayerfully considering and setting goals for this new year, I have been trying to keep this in mind- what we do today should prepare us and teach so we have a greater capacity to do more tomorrow. If we do not have a purpose to work towards every day, I can promise that we will fall short of our great and divine potential. "If you want to get somewhere you have never been, you must take a path that you have never before walked." That is a thought that came to my mind the other day, and I know it is true. I once heard that the definition of the word "insanity" is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. That's so true. In contrast to that, In Hebrew, the word that means "joy" also means "eternal progression." How can we be happy if we are always staying the same? I don't want to look back tomorrow and realize I am the same person I was yesterday. I want to be better. I want to grow. And ETERNAL progression is key, too. We continue to progress in the Celestial Kingdom. I know that. I think that "hell" essentially is a state of static being, a state where you can no longer progress and change. How awful would that be? If Adam and Eve had never been cast out of the Garden of Eden, they would never have been able to learn or grow, and we would not exist. "Adam fell that men might be, and men are that they might have JOY." (Or eternal progression, since we just learned that they are interchangeable and dependent upon one another.) We must too leave our "Garden of Eden." We cannot grow in our comfort zone. It is impossible. One day we must go out into the "lone and dreary wilderness" and grow and experience both the good and the bad, and learn. And you know what? One day what once was a lone and dreary wilderness will become a comfortable Garden of Eden, and we are going to have to leave again so we can continue progressing, continue finding that joy. Change is good. Embrace it! Let God lead you where He will. He knows better than we do anyways. If there is anything I have learned out here, it is that. Trust Him, and He will make you an instrument in His hands to do miracles. I can promise you that with all my heart, as a representative of Jesus Christ.

How amazing is that?! That God, who is perfect and all-powerful, let little old me, Alyssa Marie Miller from Mead, Colorado, find, teach, and gather His oh-so-precious children. Alyssa who is scared of moths and spiders, Alyssa who has zero self-control when it comes to Reeses Peanut-Cutter cups (Thanks, Mom! Now I am gonna get more fat! Just when I was trying to start "losing myself in the work,") Alyssa who didn't even really become dedicated to the gospel until a little over a year and a half ago. If I can change and become a worthy and powerful servant for the Lord, so can anyone else in the world. If you doubt that, go read Mosiah 27. Like, right now. I love the story of Alma the Younger. If you want to know how I feel, read verses 28 and 29. So beautiful. God has never given up on you, and He never will. We all can change. We all can have eternal progression. We all can feel JOY. Live every day so that you will gain that. Serve the Lord and He will provide. Go read Mosiah 5:12-13 too. Serve Him, and He will serve you. I can't say that enough.

I love you all. Work hard every day. We owe it to Him. He will make it worth it.


Hermana Miller

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