August 25, 2014
Hello world!
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| Hermanas Carlson & Miller, Omaha Spanish Ward, Omaha, NE |
Another wonderful week in
the mission! And I just got done
playing a missionary volleyball "tournament" so I am happy as a clam.
(Are clams even happy? Where did that
saying come from, anyways?) We had enough people for five teams and there were
a lot of really great players! I have missed it a lot. I still love
competition, so between Monday morning volleyball
and Saturday night Futbol (Soccer) I am loving life here in Omaha.
(And I am starting to get a very loose hang on soccer! It's fun! Especially when
you play with all the members. Hermana Carlson and I are the only women who
play though....but they don't give us any special treatment! Haha!)
This week I spent a lot
of time reflecting. This is a little
unorthodox, but I want to apologize to everyone. I need to apologize for the
person I was before the mission. Especially, during high school. I was not a
good example of anything, except what NOT to do. This is my sincere and
heartfelt, penitent apology to absolutely anyone who I ever offended, hurt, or
blew off. This is an apology to anyone I ever let down, or led astray. This is
an apology to everyone to whom I owed a good example, and fell short. I made a
lot of mistakes in my life. The mission has definitely humbled me and helped me
to recognize just how much more I could have done and been. I'm so sincerely
sorry, from the bottom of my heart. I didn't live the way I should have. I was
self-conscious and easily swayed from doing what I knew was right. I recognize
now that a lot more people watch you than you think, and I feel sincere sorrow
for all the people that saw me do things that didn't reflect the will and love
of our Heavenly Father. I promise I
really have changed. I don't even recognize, nor want to associate anymore with
the person that I was, and I will never go back to being that girl. Please, please feel the heart I am putting
into this. I messed up. A ton.
But I don't want to anymore. I'm not perfect. No one is. But, I am
grateful to the Savior for giving us the chance to change. I hope everyone I
ever hurt can forgive me, too. I am grateful to each of you who will permit me
to change and be a better friend, family member, and example to you.
Anyways, now that I have
that burden off my chest, this week went well.
We found some new families and definitely saw some miracles. We had Zone
Conference this week. Hermana Carlson and I were asked to perform a musical
number, so we wrote a song to the tune of "Little Wonders" by Rob
Thomas! We were really scared and kinda sickly, but it went off rather
smashingly. People seemed to really,
really like it! Even President Weston
pulled us aside and told us how strongly the Spirit flooded in.
Zone Conference was
incredible. We talked all about the Book
of Mormon! We are going to flood this
mission with it! Go to scriptures.lds.org right
now and watch the "Scriptures Legacy" video! I want to extend the same challenge all the
missionaries in NOM are doing to each of you - start the Book of Mormon over,
and highlight all names of Deity, all the Atonement, and every time you see the
word "heart." We are going to finish on December 8th. That's
about five pages a day. I can promise that as you do that, you will feel the
power of the atonement work in your life and you WILL have a change of heart. I
promise that with all MY heart.
I love you all! Be good!
Love, Hermana
Miller
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